JOSÉ LUIS LÓPEZ

 

 

Living different society

 

Sometimes I can't understand why the people

Surely those who think they know culture

But the reality is not what they shout out

I do know these civilians are not very proud

About the authentic society they feel so grateful for

Definitely if they don't raise the country's flag they die

 

I know I don't like certain things from my country

And I don't think I'm obsolete from the vision they might have

I lived in different place from the other side

What those individuals might dislike about here where I am

Because their perspective is not their prestige is untouchable

 

Yes I was raised in those people thoughts

They want to protect their civilians from the nasty unruly neighbors

Times have shown me the major reason for existence is our flag

Honestly a flag the majority didn't know neither respect

Fighting with the wrong information they reject to accept

 

Nobody's prophet in their homeland

Every year had exposed me the undeniable truth of the people

You may have lots of passion to become somebody

You can come from wherever you were born

You may have the education and titles uncountable

You can be raised from the hills or from city hall

 

You could have dressed like poverty or from millionaires

One thing is sure, you should have the power to control the world

And unfortunately, the flag of the homeland is on you

I know many people disgusted been born in this country

They might've passport to go wherever they feel free to

 

I know what I have and those might have what they are

Up to them to dream about everything they want to

Don't expose to me a hypocrite picture they can't support

Disgracefully today these people have the same attitude every year

 

I'm Not Where I Belong

 

There are times in my life I feel foreigner

Because the civilians do not behave correctly

They might seem opposite from my thoughts

But I don't think I could fit adequately to this society

 

People who lives around me are careless of everything

Those are living rushed up to whatever they decide to

Probably escaping from the same chaos, I breathe

Ironically, they can't accept the fact they have provoked it

Why's that? Unsupportive to solve what you don't control

 

Different from my perspective of have a whole peace

I definitely define this place as third world civilization

The only pride of survival is the flag they barely respect

The reason civilians decide to move somewhere else

Those are reluctant to tolerate their own neighbors

 

Indifferent whose people are beside me or whose walking around you

They are untouchable, high class wealth attire

So what's the show of those individuals who don't fit their society

Being isolated or ignoring the presence of everyone who is alive

 

Statues of unpitted facade of sanctity they don't believe

Custom wearing heroes of their lack of filthy legacy and pride

I don't think I could have the cynical appearance to them

In the opposite direction, I prefer not to be polluted

 

I'm not where I belong

Alienated to the wrong information of my life to forbid them to allow to be human

I'm not going to make a puppet for the pleasure of others

I have to get the esteem I will have to do this entire process

Not for the fitting the falsely civilization they were pretending

 

Unwanted Birth

 

Indescribable, insensitive, undesirable

Whatever word could identify exactly the episode

But that scenario was given to me at birth

Certainly not pleasurable for anyone into this situation

The reason I talked about it is because I was there

 

The protagonist of his arrival to the new world

Filled with despair, disagreement and disgusting thoughts

A single mother treated badly because her status was unpleasant

A family broken, her future was insecure

Only option was living with another sibling

 

Except the fact that she had to work to keep me alive

She knew a couple of people who would assist the situation

The baptism of the child interrupted due her unmarried relationship

The priest refused to make the service required

And my foster grandparents intercede against the church

 

Every obstacle was right signal my life is not going good

No friends, no brother neither sister, only myself

To avoid consequences, she agreed not to get pregnant

And those people agreed to raise me in their family

Mother was their neighbor in this new generation

 

Lived bullying, lived discrimination, lived being sexual molested

I had wrong friends who liked to vandalize everything

We used to break public phone booths because it was enjoyable

Until police caught us on guard in the felony

That ignited the conflict among families

 

To be acceptable for male friends in elementary school

I had to ridicule dancing as vedette for the agreement of the peers

And the whole school knew the abomination I was exhibiting

Those children there decided to destroy me pushing me into dirty water lagoon playground

 

Was it pleasant to me? Absolutely not

I was nobody to those male children

They wanted to have power over me

Obviously, I have no choice to go with the girls

I learned lots of games with them

Until grown up I could play with those things

 

Being adult, I realized that I was not whom I was

Mother knew the new reality I couldn't accept

That day arrived for us like family, she honestly knew my sexuality

Agreed she won't have grandkids

 

Great value I felt proud to have accepted whom I was

The people rejected me they are totally deleted

I have the ability to admit whoever I want to my life

From now on I have control of everything I need to

 

The experience shown the reality of the civilization

You can't satisfy appearance of those who are disliked you

Felt not valid is not going to make the universe different

Unless you want to demonstrate the opposite direction, you have to live

 

JOSÉ LUIS LÓPEZ