Friday, April 1, 2016




My children are my golden treasure...
bringing back my thoughts to my yesteryears
my story begins when I was a teenage mother ..
through breasfeeding I nurtured my first son
till no milk from me I could squeeze upon
I wished to feed him nutrients he essentially needs abound
I lacked to provide him, my world seemingly didn't go round
it bled my heart as my purse was thin and empty
windows were only covered by sacks that was how pity were we
and nothing could be found in every corner of our dinky shelter
even a tiny ashes of regrets couldn't be found in there bare it was.. it was representing me..
from there I just learnt to dream
though not for me but for them
I believe it's not late to create
a nest for my coming children
behind that huge mountain
I whispered my wishes for them
at night as i gazed up the skies
I asked the stars to guide
me in heading my way
I wished to be one of them
glittering and sparkling glee
yes it was never too late
to build my illusive dreams
I heard the whisper of the bees
carried by an optimistic breeze
there will be beautiful days coming ahead
..and I was motivated by those dreams..
I started to carry sack on my shoulder
I climbed mountains
I shouted "used clothing for sale!"
I made dough nuts though I wasn't good enough
house to house i was selling any stuff
just enough to have fare and offering for a Sunday mass
..and i started to pray so intense..
I dazzled myself to the city I know I could be more than me..
my potential was heavy..If they can do why can't me?
I grabbed opportunities knocking my door
I started to level up and learnt for more
I patiently carried my life
I embrace obstacles and strive love for my children was simply my inspiration..
they energized me behind my tiredness
I could afford to grin and bear behind difficulties
they were the reason why I have to go out rain or shine
as I could not stop dreaming even for a short while
yet life never stopped teasing me
tears were entwined in my way
below the belt I was being hit
my softness was abused by the wicked..
..for more.. i learnt life..
and I even learnt to write..
I worked hard without limit
in my work I poured my spirit
I gambled myself bravely to
the challenge of this world
my journey never been smooth
I tackled every inch of my worth
..yet I never whined ..
I continue to walk with faith..
come what may
though I fell and stumbled
It's arduous part of my path to cross..
It had to be that way..yet life was still good
..and like a mother eagle..
I ventured across the sea
I soared to the highest sky
rising to the great heights
storm befallen but i never been
ravaged by my undying courage
..another day another sunshine
to humanity I have to bind..
my guide is my daughter
watching me from heaven
In my womb also she suffered
the indescribable pain I have been
now she is the most amorous angel with her candid cheers
she shield me with her wings.. I am fearless..
unafraid to venture my strength to this universe
nothing impossible in the heaven beneath.
now I savoured my own self
in every trial I never tilt..
until I could give them this mountain..
where I started to create my dreams..
..they are my treasure...
my golden treasure are my 5 loving children..
....6 including the one in heaven
they are preparing my exquisite crown
as I am their endearing queen..


In our friendship you treated me like a princess
I was amazed and to you I was so much pleased
You showed me care my life haven't experienced
I was your muse of the night and you were my prince

I begun to worry as to each we started to miss
Is this sort of love we started to feel for each?
You explained It's like water and food we both need
Though  how strong  my faith with your words I became weak

It was an enigma a feeling we couldn't contain
I  describe love between us was like heaven
I made poems of love so pure so intense
You played sweet music for me to listen

In a beautiful park we claimed it was our Kingdom
We strolled every night sharing our lives boredom
We shared everything under the moonlight
You're awesome, your intelligence shined so bright

The power of your touch is much higher than lust
You promised me nothing only just love
As we both glide in our difficult situation
I became the woman no longer near to perfection

You became my stength that I lost in mine
I became selfish I want to grab all your time
Though I was aware you were not really mine
And I am not yours in the name of God and mankind

You told me I was your happiness yet they are your life
And our faith will wake us up one day even we don't like
Our faith in God will separate both our lives
And I couldn't  talk how can I argue if you were right asked what was wrong with my words?
How could I talk to give a fight if my rival is my Lord?
I finally broke  my voice with tears flowed more than fast
Were you aware?.. that are playing my heart from the very start?..

But how can I let this feeling stop etched deeply inside my heart?
You've successfully snatched my heart with your passionate touch
I tried to find my exceptional  stength to which I had before
I want these silent tears of love to flow no more

As we stood up that so dangerous cliff
I strongly decided and bravely called it quit
I gave you my tight  embrace as i bid good bye
Paving  back to our own paths broke my heart as t'was the first time I saw you cry
Deep in our hearts we part but we know our love will never wither and die

I find myself back to me and so my  strength
To my beautiful  place I brought back my sweet pains
It wasn't easy as in your heart you locked me and threw the key
Yet I tried to remold confidently my beautiful me

Acceptance made my smile to glow again..
I can even invite you now to peep what is in..
Youre comfortably lying inside  my heart
In a very special corner where no one could touch..


I reminisce my past as I molded myself as self made one
Rolled over life, trying to get a chance to reach beyond
Into the high clouds and look over the wonders of earth
How I wished myself to touch the edge of the universe

Pains, obstacles, miseries gave me wing to fly so high
Soaring over with the stars, moon at the brightest sky
Full of dreams, full of hopes waiting to land and shine
Fulfillment of a woman’s great desire would all be mine

At the drop of a hat, best places were belonged to my patch
Driven on my awareness of my shocking excitement as such
Overwhelmed to dispel those clouds that gave me a doubt
In a thousand of wonderment I thank my braveness aloud

Yet it was not my feet bringing me over this promising land
I was put in here to shine over minds dimmed and damn
The wisdom so clear is a gift to conquer your wicked thoughts
Be broad, be light, I will bring you to my venture across

What a good experience needed to be shared to my generation
I wrote every inch of my long journey not to be oblivion
A great possession I'll leave to you that you could be grateful
Reminiscence to pass in you, live with it and glitter so full


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