HELEN SARITA

HELEN SARITA

NOTHING IMPOSSIBLE IN THE HEAVEN BENEATH

My children are my golden treasure...

bringing back my thoughts to my yesteryears

my story begins when I was a teenage mother ..

through breasfeeding I nurtured my first son

till no milk from me I could squeeze upon

I wished to feed him nutrients he essentially needs abound

I lacked to provide him, my world seemingly didn't go round

it bled my heart as my purse was thin and empty

windows were only covered by sacks that was how pity were we

and nothing could be found in every corner of our dinky shelter

even a tiny ashes of regrets couldn't be found in there

...how bare it was.. it was representing me..

from there I just learnt to dream

though not for me but for them

I believe it's not late to create

a nest for my coming children

behind that huge mountain

I whispered my wishes for them

at night as i gazed up the skies

I asked the stars to guide

me in heading my way

I wished to be one of them

glittering and sparkling glee

yes it was never too late

to build my illusive dreams

I heard the whisper of the bees

carried by an optimistic breeze

there will be beautiful days coming ahead

..and I was motivated by those dreams..

I started to carry sack on my shoulder

I climbed mountains

I shouted "used clothing for sale!"

I made dough nuts though I wasn't good enough

house to house i was selling any stuff

just enough to have fare and offering for a Sunday mass

..and i started to pray so intense..

I dazzled myself to the city I know I could be more than me..

my potential was heavy..If they can do why can't me?

I grabbed opportunities knocking my door

I started to level up and learnt for more

I patiently carried my life

I embrace obstacles and strive

..my love for my children was simply my inspiration..

they energized me behind my tiredness

I could afford to grin and bear behind difficulties

they were the reason why I have to go out rain or shine

as I could not stop dreaming even for a short while

yet life never stopped teasing me

tears were entwined in my way

below the belt I was being hit

my softness was abused by the wicked..

..for more.. i learnt life..

and I even learnt to write..

I worked hard without limit

in my work I poured my spirit

I gambled myself bravely to

the challenge of this world

my journey never been smooth

I tackled every inch of my worth

..yet I never whined ..

I continue to walk with faith..

come what may

though I fell and stumbled

It's arduous part of my path to cross..

It had to be that way..yet life was still good

..and like a mother eagle..

I ventured across the sea

I soared to the highest sky

rising to the great heights

storm befallen but i never been

ravaged by my undying courage

..another day another sunshine

to humanity I have to bind..

my guide is my daughter

watching me from heaven

In my womb also she suffered

the indescribable pain I have been

now she is the most amorous angel with her candid cheers

she shield me with her wings.. I am fearless..

unafraid to venture my strength to this universe

nothing impossible in the heaven beneath.

now I savoured my own self

in every trial I never tilt..

until I could give them this mountain..

where I started to create my dreams..

..they are my treasure...

my golden treasure are my 5 loving children..

....6 including the one in heaven

they are preparing my exquisite crown

as I am their endearing queen..

PEEP WHAT IS IN

In our friendship you treated me like a princess

I was amazed and to you I was so much pleased

You showed me care my life haven't experienced

I was your muse of the night and you were my prince

I begun to worry as to each we started to miss

Is this sort of love we started to feel for each?

You explained It's like water and food we both need

Though  how strong  my faith with your words I became weak

It was an enigma a feeling we couldn't contain

I  describe love between us was like heaven

I made poems of love so pure so intense

You played sweet music for me to listen

In a beautiful park we claimed it was our Kingdom

We strolled every night sharing our lives boredom

We shared everything under the moonlight

You're awesome, your intelligence shined so bright

The power of your touch is much higher than lust

You promised me nothing only just love

As we both glide in our difficult situation

I became the woman no longer near to perfection

You became my stength that I lost in mine

I became selfish I want to grab all your time

Though I was aware you were not really mine

And I am not yours in the name of God and mankind

You told me I was your happiness yet they are your life

And our faith will wake us up one day even we don't like

Our faith in God will separate both our lives

And I couldn't  talk how can I argue if you were right

Talk..talk talk..you asked what was wrong with my words?

How could I talk to give a fight if my rival is my Lord?

I finally broke  my voice with tears flowed more than fast

Were you aware?.. that are playing my heart from the very start?..

But how can I let this feeling stop etched deeply inside my heart?

You've successfully snatched my heart with your passionate touch

I tried to find my exceptional  stength to which I had before

I want these silent tears of love to flow no more

As we stood up that so dangerous cliff

I strongly decided and bravely called it quit

I gave you my tight  embrace as i bid good bye

Paving  back to our own paths broke my heart as t'was the first time I saw you cry

Deep in our hearts we part but we know our love will never wither and die

I find myself back to me and so my  strength

To my beautiful  place I brought back my sweet pains

It wasn't easy as in your heart you locked me and threw the key

Yet I tried to remold confidently my beautiful me

Acceptance made my smile to glow again..

I can even invite you now to peep what is in..

Youre comfortably lying inside  my heart

In a very special corner where no one could touch..

REMINISCENSE

I reminisce my past as I molded myself as self made one

Rolled over life, trying to get a chance to reach beyond

Into the high clouds and look over the wonders of earth

How I wished myself to touch the edge of the universe

Pains, obstacles, miseries gave me wing to fly so high

Soaring over with the stars, moon at the brightest sky

Full of dreams, full of hopes waiting to land and shine

Fulfillment of a woman’s great desire would all be mine

At the drop of a hat, best places were belonged to my patch

Driven on my awareness of my shocking excitement as such

Overwhelmed to dispel those clouds that gave me a doubt

In a thousand of wonderment I thank my braveness aloud

Yet it was not my feet bringing me over this promising land

I was put in here to shine over minds dimmed and damn

The wisdom so clear is a gift to conquer your wicked thoughts

Be broad, be light, I will bring you to my venture across

What a good experience needed to be shared to my generation

I wrote every inch of my long journey not to be oblivion

A great possession I'll leave to you that you could be grateful

Reminiscence to pass in you, live with it and glitter so full

HELEN SARITA