You Left Me

you left me

last night,

without a word...

the disappointment

licks my face

hurt

is it really over?

it shouldn't hurt so much

but why does it hurt this much

I cry silently

The Notebook Holds All My Secrets

Every day I write your name inside

I left my soul here somewhere

have you seen it?

rose leather cover.

Every day I write your name inside

I left my heart here somewhere

have you seen it?

rose leather cover

The notebook

holds all my secrets

My fears and my hopes

My dreams and my nightmares

My pride and my shame

My history

My present

I just can't live without it

I Tell You

The unseen pain you make me sad.

You make me unhappy.

I’m not strong enough for this life.

My pain it bleeds and oozes.

I tried to be brave.

But this life just isn’t for me.

I gave up on this life.

And there’s no place I’d rather be.

I can't tell you how bad this hurts.

I can't show you inside my broken mind.

I tell you with the silence.

I tell you with the scars.

I tell you in all the ways words cannot.

I scream.

I am here.

I am begging.

Someone saves me

I Thought

I confess

The truth is

I thought you were a tattoo

A permanent mark on my skin

A love that lasts forever

But you were only the ink

MÓNIKA TÓTH