MARIAN EIKELHOF

MARIAN EIKELHOF

I AM AN AUTISTIC BOY

It will be enough for me

look into your eyes,

so full of unexpected emotions,

for only a few seconds

in order to observe the turmoil

deep within,

discover it's multiple disorder disguises,

hidden agendas and untold secrets

amidst the dark mirrors of your goals.

So very tender is the soft embrace of

your presence even when we share only the couch,

even though we don't talk.

Don't look me in the eye

for a length of time

I will explode feeling powerless

without warning

In whatever context, randomness

I'll destroy all on my way.

Full of tenderness

yet desperate

don't push me over the edge

my beloved guide

I might have other ways

of looking at things

of coping

not to frustrate you

make you feel sad.

If you trespass the boundaries of my structures,

break into my safety zone,

with dogshit all over your shoes

and carelessness,

I'll  never come back

not in the farthest universe

You'll see me return.

My love isn't silver

My heart is gold

I am an autistic boy.

PEACE CHILD

I put on your love like a warm coat

Forgive me, dear child, you are so cold.

He knew quite well

how to shine a light

on complex matters

like female rights while

beating his wife.

She worried about the homeless

in every breakfast show,

Ladies wear the right mascara

when the right dude comes along,

Leave everything behind.

Both sang out of tune

Mud on their shoes

Cash and blood on their minds

But who gives a dime, peace doesn't sell

Like sex in the park, killers and crime.

And there she lied

The beautiful peace child

Like an old rag doll

Stranded on the shore of life

Spitted out.

IN THE WHITE SAND

In a certain kind of light,

sparkling bright,

my hair is growing white

as love grows old

like pebbles on a beach

sand slipping through

the mind

like time like

you and I

my love,

naked

fragile

in the sand

endlessly

white

MARIAN EIKELHOF

MARIAN EIKELHOF (1963) is a poetand a psychologistfromthe Netherlandswith a revolutionary background. Her strong willto change society into a home foreveryoneisreflected in her poetry. Shewrotethreebookstitled ‘A zero hour contract with life’ in subsequently Dutch, English and Turk ish. A forthedition in Spanish is on its way.