CAROL MITRA

 

 

Disappearing Act

 

My shadow was eating me alive

Climbing deeper further from the

Warmth of the sun, closer to the

Dark damp where light is a mere rumour

I was only an outline of the person

I once was, whom I could not recognize

My ambitions were fading out

My dreams leaving me abruptly

My hands firm, now felt see-through

My gaze once bright was glazed

A dull focus, I am disappearing

From who I once was and knew

At times I wish I didn’t care

Yet within this chaos, a shot of hope gleams

A chance for redemption, even in depths

Of despair, resilience rises up

Shadows and trials end in silver-lined surprises

To feel deeply is my way to truly live

For even in shadows, my light does grow

My heart guides me to what truth knows

So I seek to embrace the highs and lows

Now into every action a seed I grow

My disappearance helped me grow

Stronger into the person I am now and know

© Carol Mitra

 

Phobia

 

You already know me

I am your irrational fear

My name is Phobia

I can twist your mind

Like spirit with a dash of lime

And all it would take

Is just the right line and the

Wickedest rhyme to pull you

From the time you thought

You were just doing fine!

 

Lost in a reality as dark

As mine, no shine, just grime

A slime you can’t wash off

As you sweat I intertwine

And become part of your spine

An evil design, Intertwined

I rear my ugly head you seem

To have buried yours in bed

All your bits of courage have died

Your pride has nowhere to hide!

 

Your screams drowned out by a vicious

Unnatural high tide that evil carnival ride

Have you felt fear cut you deep

Deeper than the sharpest blade

A massacred masquerade

No block can keep me out you shout

Your thoughts I have easily slayed

I know where you hide but I too am

Now on the inside you have no where

To run into dark corners I slide!

 

In those deepest confines peeking

Through those closed blinds I align

A little whisper here a shot of memory there

Is all it takes to remind that you can find

It’s nice over here you may even enjoy

Our little ride we both feed fear astride

Come swallow your pride I will provide

You a cocky stride I stand by your side

Trust me you have nowhere to reside

As I will bury you under a toxified landslide!

© Carol Mitra

 

Inward

 

It’s never too lonely in here

It’s as if I have swallowed my feelings

Moving me into the depths of my soul

A thirst that even the ocean can’t quench

 

It’s never too lonely in here

With a heart that holds secrets

Dark and deep, where roots of

The oldest tree can’t even reach

 

It’s never too lonely in here

While I take this journey inward

Beyond walls and boundaries

Like a road that opens its belly to freedom

 

It’s never too lonely in here

There is this light inside me

So radiant and warm

It takes my hand as I follow it

 

It’s never too lonely in here

The answers to the questions

Rising up in echoes reaching out

Wrapping me in soft hushed tones

 

It’s never too lonely in here

When you look into my eyes

And see it twinkling bright

My dreams awoken by star light

© Carol Mitra

 

CAROL MITRA

 

CAROL MITRA enjoys writing all genres of poetry. She has published two of her own poetry books. Some of her poems have found homes in all three of 'Poetry Soup's' anthologies! She has been published and has written poems on hope for 'Esperanza' She currently resides in Delhi with her husband and is a full-time writer.