SHEENA M. ANNIS

Sheena M. Annis

NEW YEAR 2016

Out with the old,

in with the new,

get me away,

from this crazy zoo.

I am excited to see,

how this New Year

will be, hoping it's

filled with much glee.

To all my friends,

both old and new

keep on being,

to yourself true.

This is my year,

to break out of my fear,

making myself a better

person, to those who I

hold dear.

IN MY DREAMS

Someone came to me in my dream's.

Mentally they told me that I need to

follow my revelations.

That it was okay to take the time to

care and nurture my body, to heal

my mind and soul.

For so long I have cared and have

done my best to look out for other's.

That it was okay to stop and breathe.

Sometimes I had to step into

the unknown to find my gift's and

to use them for the good of other's

but to not lose myself in the process.

This they told me and that I would

go with their blessing. That they would

find a way to let me know they are there.

IT IS NOT EASY

It is not easy being me.

To step out of my comfort

zone, baring my soul.

Afraid of being rejected,

baring either too much

or too little of myself.

Afraid to trust too much

or to like something more

than I should.

Stubborn to the core,

my way of protecting

myself.

It took too long to get

myself to where I am

today.

After nights, days

and years of crying

myself to sleep.

Wondering if anyone

other than my family

or friend's would love me.

Did I deserve to be loved?

I had given everything

of myself before.

Hitting rock bottom many

times but being stubborn

enough to not stay down.

Is this such a bad thing

for me?  Not having

someone to hold me at

night?

But then again, I don't

need to be afraid of being

rejected because I keep

to myself.

Such is life. I hope love

will find me again someday

but if not, I can keep myself

content.

Sheena M. Annis