POETESS BROOKE DYLAN

POETESS

BROOKE DYLAN

SMILE OF YESTERDAY

Memories are never ending

A time of hope and loss

We drop our hearts and souls within

These memories, these memories of yesterdays~

As my hand touched the handle;

I had the urge to pull away…

You crashed into my life~

The time of distinction came and went

To hear the sound of rapid breath, gently in my ear

I closed my eyes to the gentle touch, softly look toward your form.

Never truly knowing, what could have been~

To only get a clear picture, of a shaking voice, to know the love of you

To hear the loftiness of your voice, whispering in my ear~

“I have missed you so very long my lovely. Let me love your pain away.”

Those days of old will be no more I believe in you and me for so long~

It’s been forty-one years now

You loved me and took me so many times

Holding me in the time of forever

I felt your touch against my shoulder, your lips to my kiss

My tears to your soul~

The pleading starts, ‘please don’t leave.’

The reality of you gone was so very wrong~

Darkness of my soul comes, and tears of falling rain

The need to wrap my limbs around the touch of yours

You are the one that melts beneath me, in my mind’s eye~

My smile of yesterday are gone now and the pain of love not to last

Only a picture remains of our love, the memories of endless time

Coming awake to the summer, then winter, spring and fall~

Years and years of melted pain never really knowing

Then one day I find you with a life of your own

Just to touch your face with my fingertip~

A forbidden love that is now I guess.

Softly it will come to be,

I pray, the long lost love of yesterday~

Your rhythm is another for her to know

The year has come and gone that pain that I have felt

No more whispers in my ear, no more love torn words~

I will sit in this room, living in the past

No more heartbeat will I hear, only of pain that lasts

If I have regrets or feel inadequate. Or blindness for apology~

To regret that my smile of yesterday was not born today

To believe in second chances, to believe in you

Our love affair so many so new

To kiss the kiss of yesterday, to hold a hold of today~

My existence comes from you I say,

Below the colored lights did not pass the test~

Sweet songs come from loving you and you would sing it sweetly,

You gave me you and you asked for nothing.

How it must feel to light the world, as you walk safely~

My weeping never stops as I hold you in the darkness of the moon.

In my mind’s eye there you are the torn love that is worn again

Let me fall asleep in side of your touch, through all storms~

As I sit in silence:

“Always the smile will be of yesterday and tomorrow has come and gone.”

HOW LOST I FEEL

I take my dreams

My many nightmares

My triumphs

And I am defeated~~

To memorize my wonders of it all

Or my confusion as I fall

And always my greatest loves

Plus my tragic heartbreaks that make me want to die~~

I mix them all together

And I find my most wanting of all time

To love the most unloved

The unwanted or even the lost~~

To see the happiness or the sadness

Or the will of God

Do I really know?

To feel the loss of how I feel~~

Tears of my soul are gone

And the joys are here to stay

To see HIS face is all I ask

To let HIM know How lost I feel~~

So my tragedies are gone or here to stay

My loves are lost to me this day

My dearest Lord I give you all~~

My longest fears and worst dreams

My trembling heart so broken into

And let you know How lost I feel~~

We dream, we have nightmares. We laugh, we cry and sometimes we just want to die...because our problems seem too big to swallow. Life brings us sometimes lots of hope and sometimes no hope we think. But somehow we go on...we look to our God...and we shout with joy...and we cry tears of rain. But one day we will find ourselves in front of our Lord...and we will know then no more pain...this poem reflects my heart.

LONG LOST SONG

It wasn't so long ago

the day you gazed into my soul

walking in love among the stars

the love we possess that fills our stories

to the brim

yet somehow our tomorrows bloom from there

when our past and future struggle for control

where our arms of patience yearn for comfort

and kisses gently soften our flare~

When our eyes turned to the sky

we saw our life that others only dreamed

walking among the mountain of plains

stretching for victory till tears of sorrow took it away~

Then came the day when jealousy did part

would take his blade and tear our hearts

each night incites an empty shell to wait

for streams of dreams would sweetly start

memories of the long lost song~

Something of a chill filed the air

Turning our minds around

a pounding from the heart

which swallowed the sound~

The shadow glass was flying to and fro

memories moving like falling stars

the long lost song

could be no more~

Poetess Brooke Dylan

Deborah Brooks Langford

@ December 20, 2015