MONIKA TOTH

MONIKA  TOTH

BECAUSE...

for you Gheorghe..
My love
My heart
My soul
My future
I gave you
Why
Why
Because I am fool
Because I am goodness
Because I loved you
in every night
in every morning
in every day
in every season
because

I am an clown

I am a gold fish

I am a gold fish
you can be the lucky man
try to catch me

if you can

Love

love is a pain
is a gain
is a sun,
a chain
a sear,
is wishful
and shy,
is spaceless

and selfless

Memory

Gheorghe..

like hot chocolate
burns my tongue

sweet pain

Your

to my Turkish sweetheart

your brown eyes
warm memories

in my hard winter

Love

What can I expect
Bloody  sheet

and tearful divorce

Blind

to my Turkish sweetheart

You are
the light
what lie
on my bed,

you make me blind.

Every

Every second
Every breath
Without you
Fault
Every second

Every breath

Without you

Empty hour

self portrait

.to my Turkish sweetheart
two to things I like
one is my world,

the other is my love

you stole

darling
all is black and white
you stole  the colors out of my life

to the hell with you

Darling

Gheorghe..
when
you were name,

you meant the most

Love

what is love ?
hot chocolate

with whipped cream

My darling

The sky is black
The sunrise is crying
The moon is pale
The world is feverish
My darling,
I'm tired,

I didn't sleep

I am happy

Now I am walking in the cold town.
I hear the beautiful birds singing.
All sorrows and pains
You are my mind.

I am happy

You are my insomnia.

Charming stars
Friendly dark
Beautiful half moon
3 :am
I can't sleep.
Darling
I miss you.
Fear in my chest.
Fear in my heart.
Fear in my soul.
I can't sleep.

You are my insomnia.

our love

our love

like a flower
smooth
sensitive
delicate
nice smelling
our hands
our love so wonderful

our love so beautiful

Autumn

The sky is grey
The leaves are red, brown and golden.
The wind is wild and cold.
Autumn in the air
in the home
in garden
in the heart
in the soul

I am very happy

Summer

Now it's the summer,
everything is dry
Love me
Now it's the summer,
everything is dry
Please don't leave me
Now it's the summer,
everything is dry

Why I am alone

I miss you

I miss you
scares me
darling
my hands hurt again
scares me
worries
heartache

scares me

Nothing

Early morning
I write
Nothing new
I can't deny
Bitter night
I write
Nothing new

I can't deny

Who I am?

shattered pane
dark the new moon
an empty nest
a broken violin
greatest teardrop
lasting scar
timeless

good question

I don't know..

I don't know why
My heart is beating
I don't know why
Why am I sad inside
I don't know why.
Life so empty and cold

I don't know why

Dual

morning
without you
smoke

night 
without you

ash

Unknown

unknown shadow
behind the mirror

terrible night

Sometimes

this time of summer every morning is mine
tiny hopes flew towards me
only my negative thoughts bleed out

sometimes, not me

MONIKA TOIH