MILICA PAUNOVSKA

 

MILICA PAUNOVSKA

 

Again

 

Everything is the same.

Everything is old.

Even thoughts and feelings.

I will never feel.

I will never heal.

I will always run away; I will hide forever.

I always want to go back, but I cannot.

I want to bring you back here and I must not.

I want everything to be new, different, pink ...

I imagine how everything is happy, cheerful, smiling ...

And then I stumble,

I stop and wish

The feeling to pass,

to stand in front of you.

To have to turn off the blackness

To sow the grace.

Do not forget that hope you and I had.

 

 

Are You Afraid?

 

I'm afraid for tomorrow.

I'm afraid for everyone.

I'm afraid to be alone.

I'm afraid you will leave.

I'm afraid to grieve.

I'm afraid I will not succeed.

I could not not have you.

It will hurt if I kick you out.

I will suffer if I am incomplete.

But I pray to shine.

I will try to climb ...

As long as I can, I will shine with you.

 

 

Silent Pain

 

There are some that are no more present.

There are those who are remembered and they hurt.

There are those who deserve it, but you do not have them.

There are those who are far away, and they exist.

They are quiet and meaningful.

Small and enormous inside.

Injured and undeserved.

Mentioned but silenced forever.

Some sorrows you do not recover from.

 

MILICA PAUNOVSKA

 

MILICA PAUNOVSKA was born in the heart of Macedonia in the distant 1989 year, in a small city Negotino where she spends her childhood days. Untill she moves to the capital city and starts faculty od Economics and shortly after starts working there in Skopje. She has been writing in  the past 15 years and has revealed her first book, a collection of poems entitled "Incomplete", where she exposes herself, lets her voice be heard and allows others to peek and hear part of it. Some of her poems have already been translated and published on several foreign languages and poetry pages. For her poems, she says that they reveal herself and with her verses she gives direction to all the people who have been through or are going through similar situations as she does. She shows them that nothing is lost if you find the right creative way to feel and express yourself.