JYOTIRMAYA THAKUR

JYOTIRMAYA THAKUR

UNWANTED  GUESTS

Unforeseen guests invade our space

With fake arrogance on our face

Anger seems to run our race

And we blindly ambitions chase.

Fame is the giant one eyed goal

When we are ready to sell our soul

Then we leave on a journey  untold

Where our wealth of joys are sold.

Nights of fear come lost in thoughts

Anxiety turns our ulcers in knots

Our faith in good then terribly fight

Compassion for refuge then sight.

When we are down and least aware

Horror of future holds in a snare

Uncertain dread sweats on the skin

While panic attacks from within.

Pride in wrath opens the door anew

As fear was driven and withdrew

I repented insensitive deeds few

And my ugly repulsiveness threw.

In utter despair I said a prayer

My hope in my faith to just stay

I don't want to be afraid or terrified

But vanity moves in unapproved.

I summon my courage now to act

Spirituality to keep my mind intact

To fill my heart with love and light

Fortify my mind and conquer hate tonight.

Unfamiliar guests are unplanned waste

Unwanted thieves are wretched pests

But expelled familiar evil vices worse

Sneak silently and poison with a curse.

UNSAID

Moments when I swim in waters of waves

I forget the world that defines me in tales

And wishes sacrificed on shores wade

Like a poem when written on pages fade.

Moments when I grudge forgotten needs

Many desires crumble and rot unfulfilled

Many tears hidden in eyes unspilled

Like a garden ignored full of weeds.

Moments when I cared but lost my might

Darkness engulfed the courage to fight

When the heart asleep forgot its flight

And love inside wept in daylight.

Moments of farewell that I never got to say

When loved ones left forever anyway

Loneliness of library is there to stay

Of unseen scars that I carry everyday

Moments when I stand totally still

Wonder why I have to do this drill

A monotony in life sets in like a mill

All frolic and fun is lost in vain frill.

Moments of weakness that did matter

My story of failures when I did falter

My deepest dreams that I did not foster

The truth that defined me never did alter.

UNREQUITED LOVE

I don't want be celebrated as lovelorn soul

It is crippling me to own you whole

My obsession for you was my goal

The rejection on me has taken a toll.

My emotional vacuum has to be filled

Wounds you have given me has to be healed

The unrequited love needs to be sealed

I will leave a space for someone else to step in.

My grief shall subside in due course of time

I shall find an outlet to vent my frustration

Feelings of pain shall disappear in rhyme

I am not to be blamed in any situation.

Let's respect our feelings and emotions

Let's not be victim of circumstances

If love is missing in any relationship

There is no need of any forbearance.

It has been a severe blow to my self esteem

I fell in the trap of self loathing suppression

I have given up the chase your love to redeem

I have self confidence in self compassion.

JYOTIRMAYA THAKUR

JYOTIRMAYA THAKUR is a retired vice-principal of an International school.She is an awarded,published poet, writer, Editor, teacher,academician, administrator, translator,reviewer, Columnist, Feminist, Reiki healer,Spiritual and Social activist,promoter of literature,a member of jury for English co curricular activities in schools,colleges and Poetry forums, honorary counsellor and coordinator of charity organisations. A published author of six poetry collection and a book on Reiki Healing.Many of her poems have been published  and translated in many foreign languages on national and international websites and anthologies. A passionate person in love with children, life ,nature, peace and all cultures of this beautiful world with a dream of One world.