MARIAN EIKELHOF

MARIAN EIKELHOF

UNEMPLOYED

You tell me I can’t communicate, lack social skills, am schizoid

not flexible,

the sun also rises without me, even nicer, even brighter,

you say as you see,

I am worthless, nothing more than a diagnosis

somewhere on the spectrum of autism

whereas what you need is efficiency

what you need is results.

You tell me right in the face, eyes filled with brutality, you don’t hire me

in fact, fire me from society,

you know so very well, you can rely on me,

even though, you don’t mind burying me,

just one more casualty.

Prejudice suits you so well,

with ropes of reports round my neck

expelled.

Yet, one day, I tell you,

I break through years of inferiority, hijacks of my identity, your elitist attitude,

through boring, boring you, yourself,

hear me swear

I get that job..you bet.

VIP

you want a house with a perspective

on an infinite sky

meet yourself in a five star hotel

which suits the colour of your skin

so well, cry like a baby

for a steak, a break, a sexy chick,

short kick, schedules fixed

with bathfoam, booze

long distance phonecalls

you deserve it

are something special

life owes you this

sexy trip

I remember

they all slept together

on a floor

with no program at all

bowing

for Soni

the camp lunatic

three long hours

at a row

no food, no poetry,

lying

in your own faeces

smell of dysentery

few beans to share

steal at night

from your

neighbour sis

when she sleeps

you're all back and bone

no breasts, no belly

ur first kiss with no

teeth at all.

You want a house

you complain

no immigration centre

you deserve so much more

cause you know

in the end

no'one of us

wants to be

one of them

children of war.

FACELIFT

You told me

I would look perfect

wrinkleness

with a certain technique

touch of the tongue

my beauty would be

a delight

just as infinite as

a new born baby

a fragrance of youth

no shades of grey

bright.

however

I made a child smile

today

made a grown up man cry

today

there was no trace of

sadness

no wink of

decay

we only saw

blue skies.

MARIAN EIKELHOF

MARIAN EIKELHOF is a poet who works in her daily life as a psychologist helping as well adults as children to cope with psychosocial problems. Her work inspires her to write about the emotional aspects of existence. Not only she describes feelings of love, intimacy and desire, but also she reflects about states of profound sadness and feelings of emptiness. On the whole she criticizes dehumanisation and an ongoing process of alienation in human relationships. Marian’s poetry book “ a zero hour contract with life” has been translated from Dutch into English and Turkish. Furthermore it is important to state that Marian is an activist for peace and committed to make the world a better place for children.